Getting Real

Back in April, I wanted desperately to attend to this blog but could not find it in me. I was still dealing with the roller coaster of emotions, from despair to trying to find little slivers of hope in the situation. I also, went back and forth on how much I wanted to put out there on the internet. How much of my family and story did I want to share? What if DD made a recovery and I didn't want her image and name floating around out there, so she might have privacy as an older child or adult? Do I reveal her images and her name? I know there are plenty of "autism parents" out there, more than willing to share all details of their personal life but I'm just not completely there. I do worry about my child's safety and their privacy! I don't think even after all this time I have adequately answered those questions...but there are some things I am ready to share. I want to share the overwhelming loss I've felt. I want to share our struggles. I want to help other parents that are looking for information. I want to educate. I want to explain what my daughter and my family faces, financially, emotionally, and the lies were are told by people that are in the business of "helping" children (or not helping as the case might be). Welcome to "4 Real Autism." There are moments that are profoundly ugly and then there are moments of beauty...but in it all I will be as real as I can be... T